Saturday, July 07, 2007
is it tat hard to believe me?
Do u actually how much u mean to me?
Do u actually know how much i've fallen for u?
A past which i prefer kept secret.
A past tat i couldnt rmb.
An obsolete memory.
I couldnt believe i was like tat in the past.
If not for wad eyes could see,
Seeing is Believing.
I've got no choice but to accept my past.
I dun like her anymore.
Who i really wan now is obvious to all.
Who i really care for i believe u know it.
Who i nid in my life?
I guess i really nid u in my life.
An important part i can nv let go.
Is trust tat hard to earn?
Is learning to believe me all tat hard?
Have i changed or am i self deceiving?
I all the while thot i have been faithful.
I all the while thot i jus plainly really love u.
Can't u feel it? or mayb u dun.
Maybe everyone ard me is lying.
Lying to me, saying tat i've change.
Well, im used to it already.
Everyone dun trust me.
Parents and all.
Perharps i jus muz get use to it.
Is ok. I'll still go on.
I'm ok, Dont worry. I'll still smile again.
Drowning in my own tears,
Will u still save me anymore?
Drinkin up my sorrow,
Will u still stop me, Will u still care?
Smoking the pain away,
Will the pain still be there tmr?
My confidence tat seem so crush.
I thot tat everything was so right.
I guess i was wrong.
Own Part thinking i guess.
I thot i was finally closer to owning u.
But still at tis moment,
I feel i could lose u any moment.
Will u still come tonite?
Will u still be there for me tmr?
Fcuk! Where have my confidence gone to?
I used to believe i live for myself.
But it seems like im more & more revolve ard u.
I'm sry seems like the only word i can say.
Lost for words, In a world of confusion.
I'm confuse, Till i dunno where i stand.
Do u love me? Or is it juz a liking? a crush?
I'm sry i'm sry i'm sry!
Im not doubting u.
But for the first time im doubting myself.
Why have i become like tat?
I've change, I've really change.
haven't i?
I know wad is sad, I know wad is pain.
Emotionless was wad i used to be.
Wad so good bout have emotions.?
To feel hurt? Pain? Sad?
Omg! i dun like having any emotions.
To see u've cried, To know tat i've hurt u.
Lead me to tears.
Why? why is the only question.
I'll cry when i see u cry?
Emotions i thot i only felt when i was a kid.
Am i a kid all over again?
Feeling helpless, not knowing wad to do.
Everything i did at the moment seems wrong.
Felt the pain u're feeling.
Didnt mean to hurt u. But still, im sry!!
baby dun keep anything from me.
Tell me how u feel,
Tell me wad u'r thinking,
Tell me wad u wan.
I cant predict, i dun wanna guess.
I dun wan history to repeat.
I dun wanna feel like this anymore.
I dun wanna feel helpless anymore.
Let me be there for u. Ups or downs.
I'm sry tat i smoke and drink today.
I jus nid to chill a lil.
I'm sry i break my promise.
``Bonggz~
